“I don’t have any problems and I know the answer to all my problems, whether I see it or not. The truth is I always have the answer. There is nothing too difficult unless I believe it is, and that’s just a thought.” – Ildiko Allen
In this episode Ildiko explores whether “none of her thinking is actually true”, noticing that there are areas where she still believes her thinking to be true and other areas where she can see that her thoughts aren’t real. Kaye shares her recent exploration of not bringing thought with her through time, just experiencing thought in the moment, having this fluid experience. It’s only when we bring thought with us through time that it doesn’t feel fleeting. If we’re simply living, then it doesn’t matter whether thought is true or not, it’s just a momentary energy.
“When we unlearn, strip away, take off all these ideas of constructs and shoulds that we’ve built up, those have to’s, we realise that what sits underneath all that armour that we’ve built up, what sits underneath our education, is the potential for anything.”
Ildiko talks about not knowing what work she’s going to have in summer, realising that thinking about where her work is going to come from isn’t going to be helpful, noticing that she’s usually more productive and engaged when she’s not having any thinking, where stuff happens more easily and she feels more alive and connected.
Both explore how it feels to trust their own wisdom and gut instinct when committing to events, allowing themselves to say no to things and being surprised by it instead of feeling an intuitive no and committing to something anyway. Kaye talks about the difference between engaging in something from a personal preference space compared to allowing herself to work on something she hadn’t perceived before which might be against her personal preferences.
Ildiko talks about how learning to her now looks like the stripping away of things, taking off ideas of learning, have to’s, constructs and shoulds, leaving the potential for anything to happen.