“It’s fine when I have thinking that I’m not okay, I now know what that is. I still get it from time to time, not that much anymore. Now I understand what we call the nature of thought. It doesn’t mean anything, it’s just a thought that’s come into my head, if left alone will pass on through and another thought will pop in a second later. – Susan Marmot
In this episode of Nine Lives Susan shares how having an understanding of the Three Principles allows her issues to disappear. She talks about how she used to have lots of insecurities in the past, thinking she needed to be fixed, not having any self belief and looking to other people for answers to get over her insecurities in order to feel okay again. Susan shares how she used to go on a lot of courses and attend therapy in order to work on her issues. She talks about how those courses were successful in the short term but her insecure thinking would creep back in again after a while.
“In the past that thought would come in, the thought that I’m not clever enough or don’t look good enough, or I’m too shy or unconfident and I would stop, grab hold of that thought and run with it and try and work out what I can do about it. Now that thought comes in and goes out, there’s nothing to do, another thought will be along in the next moment. The only way I can have the experience of feeling not good enough or feeling like I’m lacking something is if I decide to take that thought seriously. That’s what I was innocently doing before over and over again before coming across this understanding.”
What she didn’t understand then which is life changing for her now is that thought is transient. So now when she has insecure thinking, she knows she’s okay, it doesn’t mean anything, it’s just thought popping into her head, leaving in any moment and being replaced by another thought. In the past however she would take her thinking seriously, holding onto it and running with it and then trying to work out what to do about it to fix it. Now she knows that she’s only feeling and experiencing what she’s thinking at that time. If she’s in free flow than there really is nothing to look at, nothing to examine and nothing to fix. Thought will simply come in and go out.
At this point in time Mind for Susan is knowing she’s okay, that she has everything in every single moment and that she absolutely knows what she needs to do. These were unimaginable things for Susan in the past before she had this understanding. In the past there were so many areas of Susan’s life where she had no idea what to do compared to now where she has non stop access to that place of wisdom inside herself. Susan shares that everyone has access to this place of wisdom, it’s always there and one can either be aware of it or not. Sometimes we get caught up and look in the wrong direction for answers. It’s about going back into free flow, letting your thoughts go in and out because we absolutely can hear what the right thing is for us in any moment.
Susan shares that consciousness is all about noticing. It’s not about doing anything or efforting, consciousness is simply about bringing things to life. Anytime you feel there’s effort, you’re moving in the wrong direction. If you find yourself doing that, then it’s not about trying to replace your thinking but simply just noticing it, that’s enough to come out of personal thinking. Sometimes it might take longer for someone to regain access to wisdom again. Susan shares that consciousness makes your thought look real and then you experience whatever you’re thinking. Noticing your thoughts is useful because then you can come out of your thoughts instead of being stuck in them or trying to solve your issues from within your thoughts. Susan gives an example to put consciousness into play, where when you come out of a busy period at work, it’s easy to try and figure out within your thoughts what to do next. It’s about understanding that the answers are not up there and when we notice that we can have a clearer mind and fresh thinking can come in any moment that might be useful to our situation.
Susan still has the full human experience and she experiences a full range of feeling however her experience of it is different. She now has a lot of good feeling experiences compared to in the past where she wouldn’t feel so good.
Kaye talks about how she feels insecure thinking at the time of this recording but at the same time she also experiences peace, a feeling of being anchored in peace compared to the seductive nature of her insecure thinking in the past.
Susan finishes off the call reminding us that we usually trust our bodies to get better on their own, so why don’t we trust our mind to do the same.