“I spent so much of my life thinking I need to do something to make stuff happen, to struggle, to be the engine and now I realise I can just let go and have a conversation which then takes me where it needs to take me. I fully know that the prison I’m meant to work in, I’m going to work in. So I can have conversations and totally be myself, not worrying whether something is going to come out of it or not. It’s effortless, it’s absolutely effortless!” – Anna Debenham
In this Nine Lives episode Anna shares how she’s now open to any opportunity that comes her way relating to working in prison, sharing the understanding of the Three Principles, knowing how many mental health issues there are in prison.
When we realise on a deep level that just because we think something it doesn’t make it true, we can stop paying attention to our thoughts. When we trust in the safety net that we’re being held by life, by that energy that’s behind our existence, we understand that we’re being lived and don’t need to direct our ship all the time and fight off the storms. There’s a deeper wisdom in the background that’s moving our life forward, moving the existence of our life forward.
She also realises that business is not about struggle, it’s not about going down a particular path as she previously thought to be true. She has seen for herself how many people want to help and support when one is doing good work and she can see that the idea of having a non profit organisation feels easy to her. Raising money and getting funding is easy because she’d be doing something that she’s passionate about and she can talk about it in a passionate way. She noticed how she’s lightened up where life doesn’t seem so limiting anymore. Anna realised that she made life harder for herself than it needed it to be but it’s just about seeing what sounds good and sounds exciting to her, creating a business that sounds viable and doing what she loves, there’s a flow to it.
Anna realised that her anchor isn’t anchored in her thinking anymore, she’s not being thrown about at the mercy of her thinking, her anchor is now more and more in universal mind. She’s seeing more on a deeper level how spiritually abundant she is, seeing the constant flow of life, having that deep knowing that she doesn’t need to do anything, because there’s a flow to life that if she lets go of her thinking, becomes more and more available to her. She doesn’t need to direct her ship anymore because she can see the safety net, being held by life, seeing how much we’re lived, being part of the same experience of life, constantly moving and flowing.
She can now relax more and more, be herself and have the conversations she’s having, without worrying whether they lead to something or not. She now knows what’s going to happen is going to happen, there’s nothing to do and one can’t do life wrong.
Kaye is reminded of the No Thought state that Sydney Banks mentioned, she can see Anna being anchored in that state where there is no separation and one is just being part of the doing but there’s no “one” to do it. There’s a paradox because everything is being done, but by nobody. She got a sense of oneness, an organism without any human personal thinking involved. Realising how we must tire ourselves out by separating ourselves away from our natural state of evolution, from life being life.
Anna shares that she can see the unity between logic and spirit and one informs the other that this is the way it works. It’s about resting in the oneness that lives us, that lives everything which takes the anxiety off the table of the need having to do anything other than what needs to be done.
Anna can see that if our thinking was in a different language to the language we speak, we wouldn’t be taking our thinking seriously in the first place because we wouldn’t understand it, so we automatically wouldn’t believe in it. The same is true now even though we understand the language of our own thinking, we don’t have to give it meaning. Just because we think something, doesn’t make it true.