The other day I received a request to interview someone. I didn’t know this person yet, all I had received was a little bio about them. Based on that little bit of information, my thoughts started bubbling away, building up a whole story about who this other person is, how this person is further along in their understanding, how they’ve already achieved so much, how they’re superior and I’m inferior…blah blah blah. My thoughts were having a field day, building that person up to be some “grand being”, without me even having met that person.
All of the sudden I felt blocked in my ability to do this interview, I suddenly had believed my own thinking. I was seduced by my own thoughts. I messaged Kaye to see whether she wanted to do the interview instead. I really wanted to do it but I just couldn’t see how I was able to perform considering my own built up thinking about this person. How could I be me? Not only had I made up a whole story about this person but I also made up a whole story about myself, about how I wasn’t a good enough interviewer. How I needed to be someone else, someone more “advanced”, someone that had more interview skills or more experience to do the job. I genuinely thought I didn’t want to mess up with this person and rather experiment on another less “important” person first. (Totally made that up!)
Kaye invited me to have a chat, to bring awareness to my own made up thinking. What I noticed was that I already had some awareness of what was going on but I wasn’t able to shift it, I was still very much in the feeling of my own thinking. I remember Kaye saying to me “you can’t shift it”. I was confused about that. Now I understand what she meant. I was trying to shift my feeling whilst still believing my made up thinking. Once I saw the extent of my made up thinking, by simply bringing awareness to it, by seeing how I was operating “outside in”, believing my made up thinking to be true and acting it out, handing my own power over to something “made up” that I believed to be outside of me and that I had no control over. When I saw that, I was able to burst my own illusory bubbles and get back to work and do the interview.
I could see how none of what I had made up was true, none of it was based on any real evidence even though it appeared very real and true in that moment. I was fascinated to see the “Power of my own thinking” at play, how my own thinking was almost stopping me from performing if I hadn’t brought awareness to it. I was fascinated to see how I had made up a whole story in my head about how the interview was going to play out and based on that “made up story” I was then almost deciding not to do the interview “in real life”. Failing to realize that I have the potential to show up fresh in any moment, beyond my ideas of who I think I am, and beyond what I think I’m capable of from what I can see within my limited thinking.
I was able to wipe my own slate clean about who I made this other person out to be and about who I thought I was as an interviewer, allowing myself to connect with this person being to being instead of connecting with them from my made up thinking. The interview went well, I showed up and did my job.
I realised just what a force the Power of Thought is, how it allows us to create the most amazing things, allows us to bring formless ideas (imaginary thinking) into form into this reality but it also has the ability to block us, to stop us in our tracks when we believe our limited thinking to be true and have a lack of understanding about who we are beyond our made up ideas of ourselves, and how we operate as human beings through the Principles of Thought, Mind and Consciousness.
How we constantly get fresh new thinking if we don’t hold onto our “limited thinking” and how our own levels of consciousness allows us to see our own thinking at play, giving us awareness and therefore a choice to believe our thinking or to ignore it. The degree to how we see Mind, Consciousness and Thought at play at any given moment in time, has a transformational effect on our life, allowing us to perform beyond what we think we’re capable of and it allows us to discover ourselves fresh in any given moment.